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EXT. STREET. DAY
Legs run along the pavement. They are Mark Renton's.
Just ahead of him is Spud. They are both belting along.
As they travel, various objects (pens, tapes, CDs, toiletries, ties, sunglasses, etc.) either fall or are discarded from inside their jackets.
They are pursued by two hard-looking Store Detectives in identical uniforms. The men are fast, but Renton and Spud maintain their lead.
RENTON
(voice-over)
Choose life. Choose a job. Choose a career. Choose a family, Choose a fucking big television, Choose washing machines, cars, compact disc players, and electrical tin openers.
Suddenly, as Renton crosses a road, a car skids to a halt, inches from him.
In a moment of detachment he stops and looks at the shocked driver, then at Spud, who has continued running, then at the Two Men, who are now closing in on him.
He smiles.
INT. SWANNEY'S FLAT ROOM. DAY
In a bare, dingy room, Renton lies on the floor, alone, motionless and drugged.
RENTON
(v.o)
Choose good health, low cholesterol and dental insurance. Choose fixed-interest mortgage repayments. Choose a starter home. Choose your friends.EXT. FOOTBALL PITCH. NIGHT
Choose leisure wear and matching luggage. Choose a three piece suite on hire purchase in a range of fucking fabrics. Choose DIY and wondering who you are on a Sunday morning. Choose sitting on that couch watching mind-numbing sprit-crushing game shows, stuffing fucking junk food into your mouth. Choose rotting away at the end of it all, pishing you last in a miserable home, nothing more than an embarrassment to the selfish, fucked-up brats you have spawned to replace yourself. Choose your future. Choose life.Renton is hit straight in the face by the ball. He lies back on the astroturf. Voice-over continues.
But who would I want to do a thing like that?INT. SWANNEY'S FLAT. DAY
I chose not to choose life: I chose something else. And the reasons? There are no reasons. Who need reasons when you've got heroin?SICK BOY
Goldfinger's better than Dr. No. Both of them are a lot better than Diamonds are Forever a judgement reflected in its relative poor showing at the box office, in which field, of course, Thunderball was a notable success.RENTON (v.o)
People think it's all about misery and desperation and death and all that shite, which is not to be ignored, but what they forget -Spud is shooting up
is the pleasure of it. Otherwise we wouldn't do it. After all, we're not fucking stupid. At least, we're not that fucking stupid. Take the best orgasm you ever had, multiply it by a thousand and you're still nowhere near it. When you're on junk you have only one worry: scoring. When you're off it you are suddenly obliged to worry about all sorts of other shite. Got no money: can't get pished. Got money: drinking too much. Can't get a bird: no chance of a ride. Got a bird: too much hassle. You have to worry about bills, about food, about some football team that never fucking winds, about human relationships and all the things that really don't matter when you've got a sincere and truthful junk habit.SICK BOY
I would say, in those days, he was a muscular actor, in every sense, with all the presence of someone like Cooper or Lancaster, but combined with a sly wit to make him a formidable romantic lead, closer in that respect to Cary Grant.RENTON (v.o)
The only drawback, or at least the principal drawback, is that you have to endure all manner of cunts telling you that -INT. PUB I. NIGHT
No way would I poison my body with that shite, all they fucking chemicals, no fucking way.INT. PUB I. NIGHT
It's a waste of your life, Rents, poisoning your body with that shite.INT. RENTON FAMILY HOME, LIVING ROOM. NIGHT
Every chance you've ever had, you've blown it, stuffing your veins with that filth.--------
Get off that stuff, Rents and get a job. It's not as bad as it looks. While you're here, you don't fancy buying a cooker, do you?--------
From time to time, even I have uttered the magic words.SWANNEY
Are you serious?RENTON
Yeah. No more. I'm finished with that shite.SWANNEY
Well, it's up to you.RENTON
I'm going to get it right this time. Going to get it set up and get off it for good.SWANNEY
Sure, sure. I've heard it before.RENTON
The Sick Boy method.They both look at Sick Boy
Yeah, well, it surely worked for him.RENTON
He's always been lacking in moral fibre.SWANNEY
He knows a lot about Sean Connery.RENTON
That's hardly a substitute.SWANNEY
you'll need one more hit.RENTON
No, I don't think so.SWANNEY
To see you through the night that lies ahead.Freeze Frame on Swanney.
We called him the mother superior on account of the length of his habit. He knew all about it. On it, off it, he knew it all. Of course I'd have another shot: after all, I had work to do.INT. RENTON'S FLAT ROOM. DAY
Relinquishing junk. Stage One: preparation. For this you will need: one room which you will not leave; one mattress; tomato soup, ten tins of; mushroom soup, eight tins of, for consumption cold; ice cream, vanilla, one large tub of; Magnesia, Milk of, one bottle; paracetamol; mouth wash; vitamins; mineral water; Lucozade; pornography; one bucket for urine, one for feces, and one for vomitus; one television; and one bottle of Valium, which I have already procured, from my mother, who is, in her own domestic and socially acceptable way, also a drug addict.Renton swallows several Valium tablets. Voice-over continues.
And now I'm ready. All I need is a final hit to soothe the pain while the Valium takes effect.--------
Mikey. It's Mark Renton. Can you help me out?INT. MIKEY'S FLAT. DAY
This was typical of Mikey Forrester.(on screen)
What the fuck are these?(v.o)
Under the normal run of things I would have had nothing to do with the cunt, but this was not the normal run of things.MIKEY
Opium suppositories. Ideal for your purpose. Slow release, like. Bring you down gradually. Custom fucking designed for your needs.RENTON
I want a fucking hit.MIKEY
That's all I've got: take it or leave it.Renton sticks his hand down the back of his trousers and sticks the suppositories into his rectum.
Feel better now?RENTON
For all the good they've done me I might as well have stuck them up my arse.He smiles.
Heroin makes you constipated. The heroin from my last hit is fading away and the suppositories have yet to melt. I am no longer constipated.He looks around the local amenities. He is in discomfort, clutching his abdomen and falling to his knees.
I fantasize about massive pristine convenience.He stumbles through.
Brilliant gold taps, virginal white marble, a seat carved from ebony, a cistern full of Chanel No. 5, and a flunky handing me pieces of raw silk toilet roll. But under the circumstances I'll settle for anywhere.INT. HORRIBLE TOILET. DAY
Now. Now I'm ready.INT. RENTON'S ROOM. DAY
You Only Live Twice?RENTON
Nineteen-sixty-seven.SICK BOY
Running time?RENTON
One hundred and sixteen minutes.SICK BOY
Director?RENTON
Lewis Gilbert.SICK BOY
Screenwriter?RENTON
Eh - Ian Fleming?SICK BOY
Fuck off! He never wrote any of them.RENTON
OK, so who was it, then?SICK BOY
You can look it up.Sick Boy throws across a worn copy of a film guide.
How are you feeling since you came off the skag? For myself, I'm bored.RENTON
Who wrote it?SICK BOY
But you're looking better, it has to be said. Healthier. Radiant even.RENTON
You don't know, do you?SICK BOY
And I wondered if you'd care to go to the park tomorrow.RENTON
The park?SICK BOY
Tomorrow afternoon. Usual set-up.RENTON
Who wrote it?SICK BOY
Roald Dahl.RENTON
Roald Dahl. Fuck me.--------
The down side of coming off junk was that I knew I would need to mix with my friends again in a state of full consciousness. It was awful: they reminded me so much of myself I could hardly bear to look at them. Take Sick Boy, for instance, he came off junk at the same time as me, not because he wanted too, you understand, but just to annoy me, just to show me how easily he could do it, thereby downgrading my own struggle. Sneaky fucker, don't you think? And when all I wanted to do was lie along and feel sorry for myself, he insisted on telling me once again about his unifying theory of life.EXT. PARK. DAY
It's certainly a phenomenon in all walks of life.RENTON
What do you mean?SICK BOY
Well, at one time, you've got it, and then you lose it, and it's gone for ever. All walks of life: George Best, for example, had it and lost it, or David Bowie, or Lou Reed -RENTON
Some of his solo stuff's not bad.SICK BOY
No, it's not bad, but it's not great either, is it? And in your heart you kind of know that although it sounds all right, it's actually just shite.RENTON
So who else?SICK BOY
Charlie Nicholas, David Niven, Malcolm McLaren, Elvis Presley. -RENTON
OK, OK, so what's the point you're trying to make?EXT. PARK. DAY
All I'm trying to do is help you understand that The Name of the Rose is merely a blip on an otherwise uninterrupted downward trajectory.RENTON
What about The Untouchables?SICK BOY
I don't rate that at all.RENTON
Despite the Academy award?SICK BOY
That means fuck all. The sympathy vote.RENTON Right. So we all get old and then we can't hack it any more. Is that it? SICK BOY
Yeah.RENTON
That's your theory?SICK BOY
Yeah, Beautifully fucking illustrated.RENTON
Give me the gun.EXT. PARK. DAY Through the sight again. This time a Skinhead and his muscle-bound dog are in view.
Do you see the beast? Have you got it in you sights?RENTON
Clear enough, Moneypenny. This should present no significant problem.The gun fires and the dog yelps, jumps up and bites its owner (the Skinhead).
For a vegetarian, Rents, you're a fucking evil shot.EXT. PARK. DAY
Without heroin, I attempted to lead a useful and fulfilling life as a good citizen.INT. CAFÉ. DAY
Good luck, Spud.SPUD
Cheers.RENTON
Now remember --SPUD
Yeah.RENTON
If they think you're not trying, you're in trouble. First hint of that, they'll be on to the DSS, 'This cunt's no trying' and your Giro is fucking finished, right?SPUD
Right.RENTON
But try too hard --SPUD
And you might get the fucking job.RENTON
Exactly.SPUD
Nightmare.RENTON
It's a tightrope, Spud, a fucking tightrope.SPUD
My problem is that I tend to clam up. I go dumb and I can't answer any questions at all. Nerves on the big occasion, like a footballer.RENTON
Try this.Renton unfolds silver foil to reveal some amphetamine. Spud dips in a finger and takes a dab. He nods in appreciation as he tastes it. Renton leaves the packet in Spud's hand.
A little dab of speed is just the ticket.--------
Well, Mr. Renton, I see that you attended the Royal Edinburgh College.RENTON
Indeed, yes, those halcyon days.MAN 1
One of Edinburgh's finest schools.RENTON
Oh, yes, indeed. I look back on my time there with great fondness and affection. The debating society, the first eleven, the soft know of willow on leather --MAN 1
I'm an old boy myself, you know?RENTON
Oh, really?MAN 1
Do you recall the school motto?RENTON
Of course, the motto, the motto --MAN 1
Strive, hope, believe and conquer.RENTON
Exactly. Those very words have been my guiding light in what is, after all, a dark and often hostile world.Renton looks pious under scrutiny.
Mr. Renton --RENTON
Yes.MAN 2
You seem eminently suited to this post but I wonder if you could explain the gaps in your employment record?RENTON
Yes, I can. The truth -- well, the truth is that I've had a long-standing problem with heroin addiction. I've been know to sniff it, smoke it, swallow it, stick it up my arse and inject it into my veins. I've been trying to combat this addiction, but unless you count social security scams and shoplifting, I haven't had a regular job in years. I feel it's important to mention this.There is silence.
No, actually I went to Craignewton but I was worried that you wouldn't have heard of it so I put the Royal Edinburgh College instead, because they're both schools, right, and we're all in this together, and I wanted to put across the general idea rather than the details, yeah? People get all hung up on details, but what's the point? Like which school? Does it matter? Why? When? Where? Or how many O grades did I get? Could be six, could be one, but that's not important. What's important is that I am, right? That I am.MAN 1
Mr. Murphy, do you mean that you lied on your application?SPUD
Only to get my foot in the door. Showing initiative, right?MAN 1
You were referred here by the Department of Employment. There's no need for you to get you "foot in the door", as you put it.SPUD
Hey. Right. No problem. Whatever you say, man. You're the man, the governor, the dude in the chair, like. I'm merely here. But obviously I am. Here, that is. I hope I'm not talking too much. I don't usually. I think it's all important though, isn't it?MAN 2
Mr. Murphy, what attracts you to the leisure industry?SPUD
In a word, pleasure. My pleasure in other people's leisure.---------
What do you see as your main strengths?SPUD
I love people. All people. Even people that no one else loves, I think they're OK, you know. Like Beggars.WOMAN
Homeless people?SPUD
No, not homeless people. Beggars, Francis Begbie -- one of my mates. I wouldn't say my best mate, I mean, sometimes the boy goes over the score, like one time when we -- me and him -- were having a laugh and all of a sudden he's fucking gubbed me in the face, right -----------
Mr. Murphy, {leaving your friend aside,} do you see yourself as having any weaknesses?SPUD
No. Well, yes. I have to admit it: I'm a perfectionist. For me, it's the best or nothing at all. If things go badly, I can't be bothered, but I have a good feeling about this interview. Seems to me like it's gone pretty well. We've touched on a lot of subjects, a lot of things to think about, for all of us.MAN 1
Thank you, Mr. Murphy. We'll let you know.SPUD
The pleasure was mine. Best interview I've ever been to. Thanks.Spud crosses the room to shake everyone by the hand and kiss them.
Spud had done well. I was proud of him. He fucked up good and proper.--------
A little too well, if anything, a little too well, that's my only fear, compadre.RENTON
Another dab?SPUD
Would not say no, would not say no.INT. OFFICE. DAY
Picture the scene. Wednesday morning in the Volley. Me and Tommy are playing pool. No problems, and I'm playing like Paul fucking Newman by the way. I'm giving the boy here the tanning of a lifetime. So anyway, it comes to the final ball, the deciding shot of the tournament: I'm on the black and he's sitting in the corner, looking all biscuit-arsed. Then this hard cunt comes in. Obviously fancied himself. Starts looking at me. Right fucking at me. Trying to put off, like, just for kicks. Looking at me as if to say, 'Come ahead, square go.' Well, you know me, I'm no looking for trouble but at the end of the day I'm the cunt with the pool cue and I'm game for a swedge. So I squared up, casual like. So what does the hard cunt do, or so-called hard cunt? Shites it. Puts down his drink, turns around and gets the fuck out of there. And after that, the game was mine.INT. POOL HALL. DAY
And that was it. That was Begbie's story. Or at least that was Begbie's version of the story. But a couple of days later I got the truth from Tommy. It was one of his major weaknesses: he never told lies, never took drugs, and never cheated on anyone.INT. TOMMY'S FLAT. DAY
Well, sure it was Wednesday morning, we were in the Volley playing pool, that much is true.INT. POOL HALL. DAY
But Begbie is playing absolutely fucking gash. He's got a hangover so bad he can hardly hold the fucking cue, never mind pot the ball. I'm doing my best to lose, trying to humour him, like, but it's not doing any good: every time I touch the ball I pot something, every time Begbie goes near the table he fucks it up. So he's got the hump, right, but finally I manage to set it up so all he's go to do is pot the black to win one game and salvage a little pride and maybe not kick my head in, right. So he's on the black, pressure shot, and it all goes wrong, big time. What does he do? Picks on this specky wee gadge at the bar and accuses him of putting him off by looking at him. Can you believe it? I mean, the poor cunt hasn't even glanced in our direction. He's sitting there quiet as a mouse when Beggars gubs him with the cue. He was going to chib him, I tell you, then I thought he was going to do me. The Beggar is fucking psycho, but he's a mate, you know, so what can you do?The events are as follows:
Can I borrow this one?INT. PUB 2. NIGHT
Yeah, the guy's a psycho, but it's true, he's a mate as well, so what can you do? Just stand back and watch and try not to get involved. Begbie didn't do drugs either, he just did people. That what he got off on: his own sensory addiction.The glass falls into the crowd.
All right. Nobody move. The girl got glassed and no cunt leaves here until we find out which cunt did it.A man stands up from one of the tables.
And who the fuck do you think you are?Begbie kick the Man in the groin. Another moves towards him but is blocked by the Men surrounding the girl. Soon the whole mass dissolves into a brutal scrum, in which Begbie plays a prominent part.
And as I sat watching the intimate and highly personal video, stolen only hours earlier from one of my best friends, I realized that something important was missing from my life.INT. CLUB. NIGHT
How's it going with Gail?SPUD
No joy yet.TOMMY
How long is it?SPUD
Six weeks.TOMMY
Six weeks!SPUD
It's a nightmare. She told me she didn't want our relationship to start on a physical basis as that is how it would be principally defined from then on in.TOMMY
Where did she come up with that?SPUD
She read it in Cosmopolitan.TOMMY
Six weeks and no sex?SPUD
I've got balls like watermelons, I'm telling you.INT. NIGHTCLUB, WOMEN'S TOILET. NIGHT
I read it in Cosmopolitan.LIZZY
It's an interesting theory.GAIL
Actually it's a nightmare. I've been desperate for a shag, but watching him suffer was just too much fun. You should try it with Tommy.LIZZY
What, and deny myself the only pleasure I get from him? Did I tell you about my birthday?GAIL
What happened?LIZZY
He forgot. Useless motherfucker.INT. NIGHTCLUB. DANCE AREA. NIGHT
Useless motherfucker, that's what she called me. I told her, I'm sorry, but theses things happen. Let's put it behind us.SPUD
That's fair enough.TOMMY
Yes, but then she finds out I've bought a ticket for Iggy Pop the same night.SPUD
Went ballistic?TOMMY
Big time. Absolutely fucking radge. 'It's me or Iggy Pop, time to decide.'SPUD
So what's it going to be?TOMMY
Well, I've paid for the ticket.GAIL AND LIZZY
What are you two talking about?TOMMY AND SPUID
Football. What were you talking about?GAIL and LIZZY
ShoppingStanding nearby but apart from them is Renton.
The situation was becoming serious. Young Renton noticed the haste with which the successful, in the sexual sphere as in all others, egregated themselves from the failures.Begbie and Sick Boy with the Two Women.
Heroin had robbed Renton of his sex drive, but now it returned with a vengeance. And as the impotence of those days faded into memory, grim desperation took hold in his sex-crazed mind. His post-junk libido, fuelled by alcohol and amphetamine, taunted him remorselessly with his own unsatisfied desire dot.Renton notices one girl (Diane) walking on her own towards the door.
And with that, Mark Renton had fallen in love.EXT. STREET. NIGHT
Excuse me, I don't mean to harass you, but I was very impressed by the capable and stylish manner in which you dealt with that situation. I thought to myself: she's special.DIANE
Thanks.RENTON
What's your name?DIANE
Diane.RENTON
Where are you going, Diane?DIANE
I'm going home.RENTON
Where's that?DIANE
It's where I live.RENTON
Great.DIANE
What?RENTON
I'll come back if you like, but I'm not promising anything.Diane halts abruptly as a taxi pulls up.
Do you find that this approach usually works, or, let me guess, you've never tried it before. In fact, you don't normally approach girls, am I right? The truth is that you're a quite, sensitive type but if I'm prepared to take a chance I might just get to know the inner you: witty, adventurous, passionate, loving, loyal, a little bit crazy, a little bit bad, but, hey, don't us girls just love that?RENTON
Eh-DIANE
Well, what's wrong, boy? Cat got your tongue.RENTON
I think I left something back at the -The girl has disappeared into the back of the taxi.
Are you getting in or not, pal?EXT. ROAD. NIGHT
Do you understand?Spud nods drunkenly.
Our relationship is not being redefined; it is developing in an appropriate, organic fashion. I expect you to be a considerate and thoughtful lover, generous but firm. Failure on your part to live up to these very reasonable expectations will result in swift resumption of a non-sex situation. Right?Spud drinks from a bottle in the other hand and says nothing but he does not look too happy.
Diane.DIANE
Ssshh!RENTON
Sorry.DIANE
Shut up.They walk through another door and close it behind them.
Wake up, Spud, wake up. Sex.She kicks him. He moans.
Casual sex.She kicks him again. He moans again.
You useless bastards. So, let's see what I'm missing.She begins undressing him.
Not much.She switches out the light.
Tommy, let's put the tape on.TOMMY
Now?LIZZY
Yes, I want to watch ourselves while we're screwing.TOMMY
Fuck, OK.Tommy gets up and reaches into the row of videos on the floor. He lifts out Tommy and LIzzy, Vol. 1 and hastily shoves it into the video.
Christ, I haven't felt that good since Archie Gemmill scored against Holland in 1978.DIANE
Right. You can't sleep here.RENTON
What?DIANE
Out.RENTON
Come on.DIANE
No argument. You can sleep on the sofa in the living room, or go home. It's up to you.RENTON
Jesus.DIANE
And don't make any noise.
What do you mean, it's 'gone'? Where has it gone, Tommy?TOMMY
It'll be here somewhere. I might have returned it by mistake.LIZZY
Returned it? Where? To the video shop, Tommy? To the fucking video store? So every punter in Edinburgh is jerking off to our video? God, Tommy, I feel sick.
Good Morning.WOMAN
Come in and sit down. You must be Mark.
Yes, that's me.
You're a friend of Diane's?
More of a friend of a friend, really.
Right.
Are you her flatmates?
Flatmates. I must remember that one.
Good morning, Spud.
Morning, Gail. Morning, Mrs. Houston, Mr. Houston.
Morning, Spud. Sit down and have some breakfast.
Sorry about last night -
It's all right. I slept fine on the sofa.
I had a little too much to drink. I'm afraid I had a slight accident.
Oh, don't worry, these things happen. It does everyone good to cut loose once in a while.
This one could do with being tied up once in a while.
I'll put the sheets in the washing machine just now.
No, I'll wash them. I'll take them home and bring them back.
There's no need.
It's no problem.
No problem for me either.
Honestly, it's no problem.
I'd really rather take care of it myself.
Spud, they're my sheets.
Because it's illegal.
Holding hands?
No, not holding hands.
In that case you can do it. You were quite happy to do a lot more last night.
And that's what's illegal. Do you know what they do to people like me inside? They'd cut my balls off and flush them down the fucking toilet.
Calm down. You're not going to jail.
Easy for you to say.
Can I see you again?
Certainly not.
If you don't see me again I'll tell the police.
I'll see you around then.
This had better be good.
It will be. It'll make a change for three miserable junkies who don't know what they want to do with themselves since they stopped doing smack.
If I'm giving up a whole day and the price of a ticket, I'm just saying it had better be good. There's plenty of other things I could be doing.
Such as?
Such as sitting in a darkened room, watching videos, drinking, smoking dope and wanking. Does that answer your question?
Now what?
We go for a walk.
What?
A walk.
But where?
There.
Are you serious?
Well, what are you waiting for?
I don't know, Tommy. I don't know if it's... normal.
It's the great outdoors.
It's really nice, Tommy. Can we go home now?
It's fresh air.
Look, Tommy, we know you're getting a hard time off Lizzy, but there's no need to take it out on us.
Doesn't it make you proud to be Scottish?
I hate being Scottish. We're the lowest of the fucking low, the scum of the earth, the most wretched, servile, miserable, pathetic trash that was ever shat into civilization. Some people hate the English, but I don't. They're just wankers. We, on the other hand, are colonized by wankers. We can't even pick a decent culture to be colonized by. We are ruled by effete arseholes. It's a shite state of affairs and all the fresh air in the world will not make any fucking difference.
back on drugs as soon as possible. It took about twelve hours.
It looks easy, this, but it's not. It looks like a doss, like a soft option, but living like this, it's a full-time business.
Ursula Andress was the quintessential Bond girl. That's what everyone says. The embodiment of his superiority to us: beautiful, exotic, highly sexual and yet unavailable to everyone but him. Shite. Let's face it: if she'd shag one punter from Edinburgh, she'd shag the fucking lot of us.
Lizzy's gone, Mark, she's gone and fucking dumped me. It was the video tape and that Iggy Pop business and all sorts of other stuff. She told me where to go and no mistake. I said, is there any chance of getting back together, like, but no way, no fucking way.
I want to try it, Mark. You're always going on about how it's the ultimate hit and that. Better than sex. Come on, I'm a fucking adult. I want to find out for myself.
Honor Blackman a.k.a. Pussy Galore, what a total fucking misnomer. I wouldn't touch her with yours. I'd sooner shag Col Kreb. At least you know where you are with a woman like that. Not much to look at, like, but personality, that's what counts, that's what keeps a relationship going through the years. Like heroin. I mean, heroin's got fucking great personality.
Swanney taught us to adore and respect the National Health Service, for it was the source of much of our gear. We stole drugs, we stole prescriptions, or bought them, sold them, swapped them, forged them, photocopied them or traded them with cancer victims, alcoholics, old age pensioners, AIDS patients, epileptics and bored housewives. We took morphine, diamorphine, cyclozine, codeine, temazepam, nitrezepam, phenobarbitone, sodium amytal dextropropoxyphene, methadone, nalbuphine, pethidine, pentazocine, buprenorphine, dextromoramide chlormethiazole. The streets are awash with drugs that you can have for unhappiness and pain, and we took them all. Fuck it, we would have injected Vitamin C if only they'd made it illegal.
And remember, Rents: no skag.
Aye, OK, Fr.
But the good times couldn't last for ever.
I think Allison had been screaming all day, but it hadn't really registered before. She might have been screaming for a week for all I knew. It's been days since I've heard anyone speak, though surely someone must have said something in all that time, surely to fuck someone must have.
What's wrong, Allison?
Nothing could have been further from the truth. In point of fact, nothing at all was going to be just fine. On the contrary, everything was going to be bad. Bad? I mean worse than it already was.
It wasn't my baby. She wasn't my baby. Baby Dawn. She wasn't mine. Spud's? Swanney's? Sick Boy's? I don't know. Maybe Allison knew. Maybe not. I wished I could think of something to say, something sympathetic, something human.
Cook one for me, Renton. I need a hit.
And so she did, I could understand that. To take the pain away. So I cooked up and she got a hit, but only after me. That went without saying.
Well, at least we knew who the father was now. It wasn't just the baby that died that day. Something inside Sick Boy was lost and never returned. It seemed he had no theory with which to explain a moment like this.
Hello there, Mark.
What are you doing?
You didn't tell me you were a thief.
Hey, go easy, lady. The boy's got a habit to support.
Opium doesn't just grow on trees, you know.
...because shoplifting is theft, which is a crime, and, despite what you may believe, there is no such entity as victimless crime. Heroin addiction may explain your actions, but it does not excuse them. Mr Murphy, you are a habitual thief, devoid of regret or remorse. In sentencing you to six months' imprisonment my only worry is that it will not be long before we meet again. Mr Renton, I understand that you have entered into a programme of rehabilation in an attempt to wean yourself away from heroin. The suspension of your sentence is conditional upon your continued cooperation with this programme. Should you stand guilty before me again, I shall not hesitate to impose a custodial sentence.
Thank you, your honour. With God's help, I'll conquer this affliction.
What can you say? Well, Begbie had a phrase for it.
It was fucking obvious that that cunt was going to fuck some cunt.
I hope you've learned your lesson, son.
Oh, my son, I thought I was going to lose you there. You're nothing but trouble to me, but I still love you.
Clean up your act, sunshine. Cut that shite out for ever.
You listen to Francis, Mark, he's talking sense.
But he pulled it off, clever bastard, and he got a result.
It's no our fault. Your boy went down because he was fucking smack-head and if that's not your fault, I don't know what is.
Right. I'll get the drinks in.
I wished I had gone down instead of Spud. Here I was surrounded by my family and my so-called mates and I've never felt so alone, never in all my puff. Since I was on remand they've had me on this programme, the state-sponsored addiction, three sickly sweet doses of methadone a day instead of smack. But it's never enough, and at the moment it's nowhere near enough. I took all three this morning and now I've got eighteen hours to go till my next shot and a sweat on my back like a layer of frost. I need to visit the mother superior for one hit, one fucking hit to get us over this long, hard day.Renton climbs the wall. He stands on top, then dives off the other side, executing a somersault in mid-air.
What's on the menu this evening?SWANNEY
Your favourite dish.RENTON
Excellent.SWANNEY
Your usual table, sir?RENTON
Why, thank you.Renton sits on his usual cushion on the floor. SWANNEY
And would sir care to settle his bill in advance?RENTON
Stick it on my tab.SWANNEY
Regret to inform, sir, that your credit limit was reached and breached a long time ago.RENTON
In that case --He produces twenty pounds. SWANNEY
Oh, hard currency, why, sir, that'll do nicely.He swipes the notes underneath a UV forgery checker.
Can't be too careful when we're dealing with your type, can we?Renton begins his search for a vein.
Would sir care for a starter? Some garlic bread perhaps?RENTON
No, thank you. I'll proceed directly to the intravenous injection of hard drugs, please.SWANNEY
As you wish.He hands Renton the syringe. Renton inject, then lies back on the dirty, red, carpeted floor. He lies completely still. His pupils shrink. His breathing becomes slow, shallow and intermittent. He sinks into the floor until he is lying in a coffin-shaped and coffin-sized pit, lined by the red carpet. Swanney stands over him. SWANNEY
Perhaps sir would like me to call for a taxi?An ambulance siren becomes faintly audible.
Wake up. Wake up.Renton breathes more easily.
I don't feel the sickness yet, but it's in the post, that's for sure. I'm in the junky limbo at the moment, too ill to sleep, too tired to stay awake, but the sickness is on its way. Sweat, chills, nausea, pain and craving. Need like nothing else I have ever known will soon take hold of me. It's on the way.The door opens. Renton's Mother walks in with a bowl of soup and a piece of bread. Father watches from the doorway. MOTHER
We'll help you, son. You'll stay with us until you get better. We'll beat this together.RENTON
Maybe I could go back to the clinic.MOTHER
No. No clinics, no methadone. That made you worse, you said so yourself. You lied to us, son, your own mother and father.RENTON
At least get us some Tempazepam.MOTHER
No, you're worse coming off that than you are with heroin. Nothing at all.FATHER
It's a clean break this time.MOTHER
You're staying where we can keep an eye on you.RENTON
I do appreciate what you're trying to do, I really do, but I need just one score, to ease myself off it. Just one. Just one.Mother retreats past Father, who closes the door. The bolts go home again. Renton lies back and closes his eyes. His forehead is damp with sweat. He begins to shake. He tosses and turns, becoming wrapped up in a swathe of blankets. As he unravels them, he is astonished to find a fully clothed Begbie in the bed with him. BEGBIE
Well, this is a good laugh, you fucking useless bastard. Go on, sweat that shite out of your system, because if I come back and it's still there, I'll fucking kick it out.Begbie laughs and covers himself up. Renton rips away the blankets, but Begbie has gone. Renton looks up. Baby Dawn is crawling across the ceiling. Renton looks down to see Diane sitting on the end of the bed. Diane sings 'Temptation' by New Order. DIANE
'Oh, you've got green eyes, oh, you've got red eyes, and I've never met anyone quite like you before.'Renton looks back up. Dawn continues her slow crawl, leaving behind a thick rail of unidentifiable slime. Renton looks down. Sick Boy sits on the end of the bed, holding a cup of tea and a chocolate biscuit. Mother stands behind him. SICK BOY
It's a mug's game, Mrs Renton. I'm not saying I was blameless myself, far from it, but there comes a time when you have to turn your back on that nonsense and just say no.Sick Boy takes a bit of his biscuit. Dawn crawls on. She has fangs now. Spud sits on the end of the bed, in a caricature prison uniform with arrows on it, plus a ball and chain. Dawn has claws as well. Tommy sits on the end of the bed. He looks terrible. TOMMY
Better than sex, Rents, better than sex. The ultimate hit. I'm a fucking adult. I'll find out for myself. Well, I've found out all right.Renton looks up again just as the baby drops on to his face. He tears her off and throws her into a corner. Renton's Mother and Father are washing him. Mother bends down and picks up the large, damp sponge from the corner, where it landed. She wipes her son's face with it. FATHER
Mark, there's something you need to do.
Come in. Sit down, please.They both sit down.
Well, you've already spoken to one of our counsellors, but before we go on there're just a few questions I'd like to ask you.
Question number one: the human immunodeficiency virus is a - what?FATHER
Retrovirus?DOCTOR
Retrovirus is the correct answer.Fanfare.
Question number two: HIV binds to which receptor on the host lymphocyte? Which Receptor?Mother and Father confer. FATHER
CD4.DOCTOR
CD4 receptor is the correct answer.Fanfare.
And now, question number three: is he guilty or not guilty?MOTHER
He's our son.DOCTOR
Is the correct answer.Fanfare.
And now it's time to 'Take the Test'.Lights flash. Music. A garish Hostess walks on with two envelopes. She holds them out for Mother to choose one.
It seems, however, that I really am the luckiest guy in the world. Several years of addiction right in the middle of an epidemic, surrounded by the living dead, but not me -- I'm negative. It's official. And once the pain goes away, that's when the real battle starts. Depression. Boredom. You feel so fucking low, you'll want to fucking top yourself.His mother counts a wad of money in front of him.
Are you getting out much?TOMMY
No.RENTON
Following the game at all?TOMMY
No.RENTON
No. Me Neither.Renton drops the ball. It rolls to a halt in the corner. He sits down. TOMMY
You take the test?RENTON
Aye.TOMMY
Clear?RENTON
Aye.TOMMY
That's nice.RENTON
I'm sorry, Tommy.TOMMY
Have you got any gear on you?RENTON
No, I'm clean.TOMMY
Well, sub us, then, mate. I'm expecting a rent cheque.Renton produces some of his bingo win. As he hands the notes over, their eyes and hands meet for a moment. Tommy puts the money away. TOMMY (continued)
Thanks, Mark.RENTON
No problem.(v.o)
No problem -- easy to say when its some other poor cunt with shite for blood.
Surprise! Pa-pah!Renton sits down and takes it in silence.
Hit the artery by mistake. Common enough error, or so the quack tells us, as though that's going to make my leg grown back. Still, it could have been worse, it could have been my fucking dick. And I tell you what, in this place you get looked after: clean sheets, regular meals and all the morphine you can eat.RENTON
Great.SWANNEY
And see when I get out of here. I've got plans. Going to get myself straightened out and head off to Thailand, where women really know how to treat a guy. See, out there you can live like a king if you've got white skin and a few crisp tenners in your pocket. No fucking problem.RENTON
Sure.SWANNEY
The strategy is this: get clean, get mobile, get into dealing, and this time next year I'll be watching the rising sun with a posse of oriental buttocks parked on my coupon.RENTON
Sounds great, Swanney.SWANNEY
Yeah.RENTON
You'll have to send us a postcard.SWANNEY Sure will, pal, sure will.
And I got a stitch stuck between my teeth, jerked my head back and the whole fucking stump fell off.SICK BOY
Cut it out.RENTON
When are you going to visit him?SICK BOY
Don't know. Maybe Thursday.RENTON
You're a real mate. And what about Tommy? Have you been to see him yet?Sick Boy is silent. He stiffens as he avoids Renton's gaze. They shift fractionally apart. RENTON tuts. SICK BOY
Fuck you. OK, so Tommy's got the virus. Bad news, big deal. The gig goes on, or hadn't you noticed? Swanney fucks his leg up. Well, tough shit, but it could have been worse.RENTON
You're all hear.SICK BOY
I know a couple of addicts. Stupid wee lassies. I feed them what they need. A little bit of skag to keep them happy while the punters line up at a fiver a skull. It's easy money for me. Not exactly a fortune, but I'm thinking, 'I should be coining it here.' Less whores, more skag. Swanney's right. Get clean, get into dealing, that's where the future lies. Set up some contacts, get a good load of skag, punt it, profit. What do you think?RENTON
Fuck you.SICK BOY
And I'll tell you why. Because I'm fed up to my back teeth with losers, no-hopers, draftpacks, schemies, junkies and the like. I'm getting on with life. What are you doing?
What do you want?DIANE
Are you clean?RENTON
Yes.DIANE
Is that a promise, then?RENTON
Yes, as a matter of fact, it is.DIANE
Calm down, I'm just asking. Is that hash I can smell?RENTON
No.DIANE
I wouldn't mind a bit, if it is.RENTON
Well, it isn't.DIANE
Smells like it.RENTON
You're too young.DIANE
Too young for what?Renton looks in each direction along the empty passageway.
You're not getting any younger, Mark. The world is changing, music is changing, even drugs are changing. You can't stay in here all day dreaming about heroin and Ziggy Pop.RENTON
It's Iggy Pop.DIANE
Whatever. I mean, the guy's dead anyway.RENTON
Iggy Pop is not dead. He toured last year. Tommy went to see him.DIANE
The point is, you've got to find something new.Diane completes the joint. RENTON (v.o)
She was right. I had to find something new. There was only one thing for it.
Can you take this call?Renton takes the telephone and reaches for a piece of paper from which he reads. RENTON
Hello, yes, certainly. It's a beautifully converted Victorian town house. Ideally located in a quiet road near to local shops and transport.Renton checks his watch.
Two bedrooms and a kitchen/diner. Fully fitted in excellent decorative order. Lots of storage space. All mod cons. Three hundred and twenty pounds per week.A couple approach. Renton unlocks the door of a flat and holds the door open while he ushers them in.
I settled in not too badly and I kept myself to myself. Sometimes, of course, I thought about the guys, but mainly I didn't miss them at all. After all, this was boom town where any fool could make cash from chaos and plenty did. I quite enjoyed the sound of it all. Profit, loss, margins, takeovers, lending, letting, subletting, subdividing, cheating, scamming, fragmenting, breaking away. There was no such thing as society and even if there was, I most certainly had nothing to do with it. For the first time in my adult life I was almost content.
Dear Mark, I'm glad you've found a job and somewhere to live. School is fine at the moment. I'm not pregnant but thanks for asking. Your friend Sick Boy asked me last week if I would like to work for him but I told him where to go. I met Spud, who sends his regards, or at least I think that's what he said. No one has seen Tommy for ages. And finally, Fracis Begbie has been on television a lot this week. --
as he is wanted by the police in connection with an armed robbery in a jeweller's in Corstorphine. Take care. Yours with love, Diane.There is a buzz at the door. Renton re-examines the letter. There is another buzz. RENTON
Oh no.
Armed robbery? With a replica? How can it be armed robbery? It's a fucking scandal.He 'fires' the gun a few more times at his own head, then chucks it to the floor.
And the haul. Look.He digs a few rings out of his pocket and throws them to Renton.
Solid silver, my arse. I took it to a fence -- it's trash, pure trash. There's young couples investing all their hopes in that stuff, and what are they getting?RENTON
It's a scandal, Franco.BEGBIE
Too right it is. Now look, have you got anything to eat, 'cos I'm fucking Lee Marvin, by the way.
Begbie settled in in no time at all.Begbie opens a can of beer. Renton closes the door.
Rents, Rents, come fucking back here.Renton opens the door. Begbie is holding out an empty packet of cigarettes.
Look.RENTON
What?BEGBIE
I've no fucking cigarettes.Begbie throws the packet down to the floor. It lands near the door. He has turned back to the television and takes a swig of beer. RENTON
Right.Renton closes the door again.
Yeah, the guy's a psycho, but it's true, he's a mate as well, so what can you do?
Hey, I'm wanting a bet put on.RENTON
Can you not go yourself.BEGBIE
I'm a fugitive from the law. I can't be seen on the fucking streets. Now watch my lips. Kempton Park. Two-thirty. Five pounds to win. Bad Boy.
Bad Bot came in at 16 to 1. And with the winnings, we went out to celebrate.
Diane was right. The world is changing, music is changin, drugs are changing, even men and women are changing. One thousand years from now there'll be no guys and no girls, just wankers. Sounds great to me. It's just a pity that no one told Begbie.
You see, if you ask me, we're heterosexual by default, not be decision. It's just a question of who you fancy.
It's all about aesthetics and it's fuck all to do with morality.Suddenly Bedbie freezes. He is holding the 'Woman's' groin. There is something there that shouldn't be. Begbie goes crazy, simultaneously trying to put his clothes back on, hit the Woman and get out of the car.
But you try telling Begbie that.
I'm no a fucking buftie and that's the end of it.RENTON
Let's face it, it could have been wonderful.Begbie leaps off the bed, grabs Renton and head-butts him, then holds him by the lapel. BEGBIE
Now, listen to me, you little piece of junky shit. A joke's a fucking joke, but you mention that again and I'll cut you up. Understand?Begbie produces his knife. There is a knock on the door. They do not move. There is another knock.
Since I last saw him, Sick Boy had reinvented himself as a pimp and a pusher and was here to mix business and pleasure, setting up 'contacts', as he constantly informed me, for the great skag deal that was one day going to make him rich.
Beautifully converted Victorian town house. Ideally located in a quiet road near to local shops and transport. Two bedrooms and a kitchen/diner. Fully fitted in excellent decorative order. Lots of storage space. All mod cons. Three hundred and twenty pounds a week.
Good chips.RENTON
I can't believe you did that.SICK BOY
I got a good price for it. Rents, I need the money.RENTON
It was my fucking television.SICK BOY
Well, Christ, if I'd known you were going to get so humpty about it, I wouldn't have bothered. Are you going to eat that?He takes Renton's fish supper and adds it to his own.
Have you got a passport?RENTON
Why?SICK BOY
Well, this guy I've met runs a hotel. Brother. Loads of contacts. Does a nice little sideline in punting British passports to foreigners. Get you a good price.RENTON
Why would I want to sell my passport?SICK BOY
It was just an idea.
I had to get rid of them. Sick Boy didn't do his drug deal and he didn't get rich. Instead, he and Begbie just hung around my bedsit looking for things to steal. I decided to put them in the worst place in the world.
But, of course, they weren't paying any rent, so when my boss found two desperate suckers who would, Sick Boy and Begbie were bound to feel threatened.Man is followed by another couple. He switches on a light. MAN
As you can see, it's a beautiful conversion. Two bedrooms, kitchen/diner. Fully fitted. Lots of storage. All mod cons. Three hundred and twenty quid a week.From nowhere, Begbie and Sick Boy spring out at him.
And that was that. But by then we had another reason to go back. Tommy.
Tommy knew he had the virus, like, but never knew he'd gon full-blown.RENTON (v.o)
What was it, pneumonia or cancer?GAV (v.o)
No, toxoplasmosis. Sort of like a stroke.RENTON (v.o)
Eh? How's that?
He wanted to see Lizzy again.He indicated Lizzy. Lizzy wouldn't let him near the house. So he brought a present for her, brought her a kitten. RENTON
I bet Lizzy told him where to put it.GAV
Exactly. I'm not wanting a cat, she says. Get to fuck, right. So there's Tommy stuck with this kitten. You can imagine what happened. The thing was neglected, pissing and shitting all over the place. Tommy was lying around fucked out of his eyeballs on smack or downers. He didn't know you could get toxoplasmosis from cat shit.RENTON
I didn't either. What the fuck is it?
He starts getting headaches, so he just uses more smack, for the pain, like. There he has a stroke. A fucking stroke. Just like that. God home from hospital and died about three weeks later. Been dead for ages before the neighbours complained about the smell and the police broke the door down. Tommy was lying face down in a pool of vomit.The lower half of Tommy's clothed body is visible.
The kitten was fine.
Every time I think of Tommy I think of Australian, because every time I went round he was just lying there, junked out of his mind, watching Aussie soaps. Until he sold the telly, of course, then he was just lying there. Buy every time I think of him, I still think of Australia.
Tommy.They all drink. SICK BOY
Did you tell him?BEGBIE
No. On you go.RENTON
What?SICK BOY
There's a mate of swanney's. Mikey Forrester -- you know the guy. He's come into some gear. A lot of gear.RENTON
How much?SICK BOY
About four kilos. So he tells me. Got drunk in a pub down by the docks last week, where he met two Russian sailors. They're fucking carrying the stuff. For sale there and then, like. So he wakes up the next morning, realizes what he's done and get very fucking nervous. Wants rid of this. {---------- He's looking for Swanney to punt it, but Swanney's nowhere to be seen since he lost his leg. ----------}RENTON
So?SICK BOY
So he met me and I offered to take it off his hands at a very reasonable price, with the intention of punting it on myself to a guy I know in London.RENTON
So we've just come from Tommy's funeral and you're telling me about a skag deal?BEGBIE
Yeah.There is silence. RENTON
What was your price?SICK BOY
Four Grand.RENTON
But you don't have the money?SICK BOY
We're two thousand short.RENTON
That's tough.SICK BOY
Come on, Mark, every cunt knows you've been saving up down in London.RENTON
Sorry, boys, I don't have two thousand pounds.BEGBIE
Yes, you fucking do. I've seen your statement.RENTON
Jesus.BEGBIE
Two thousand, one hundred and thirty-three pounds.RENTON
Four kilos. That's what -- Ten years' worth? Russian sailors? Mikey Forrester? What the fuck are you on these days? You've been to jail, Spud, so what's the deal -- like it so much you want to go back again?SPUD
I want the money, Mark, that's all.BEGBIE
If everyone keeps their mouth shut, there'll be no one going to jail.
It's so simple. We buy it at four grand, we punt it at twenty to this guy that Sick Boy knows, and he punts it at sixty. Everyone's happy, everyone's in profit. I put up two. I come away with six.DIANE
Unless you get caught.RENTON
So long as everyone keeps their mouths shut, we'll not be getting caught.DIANE
So why have you told me about it?RENTON
Well, you're not going to tell anyone, are you, and besides, I thought we could meet up afterwards, maybe go somewhere together.DIANE
I've got a boyfriend, Mark.RENTON
What? Steady like?DIANE
That's right: 'going steady' for four weeks now.RENTON
And what age are you? Thirteen? Fourteen?DIANE
Sixteen next month.RENTON
Happy birthday.DIANE
What do you think -- I should be carrying a torch for you?Renton thinks it over. RENTON
So, what's he like?DIANE
Well, he's young and he's healthy.They both laugh.
And you're such a deadbeat, Mark.
I hadn't told anyone everything that was running through my mind about what might happen in London. There were a lot of possibilities I didn't want to talk to anyone about. Ideas best kept to myself. What no one told me was that when we bought the skag, some lucky punter would have to try it out. Begbie didn't trust Spud and Sick Boy was too careful these days, so I rolled up my sleeve and did what had to be done.Renton injects the heroin into a vein in his arm. RENTON It's good, it's fucking good.
Yes, that hit was good. I promised myself another one before I got to London -- just for old time's sake, just to piss Begbie off.
This was to be my final hit. But let's be clear about this: there's final hits and final hits. What kind was this to be? {----------Some final hits are actually terminal one way or another, while others are merely transit points as you travel from station to station on the junky journey through junky life. ----------}
This was his nightmare. The dodgiest scam in a lifetime of dodgie scams being perpetrated with three of the most useless and unreliable fuck-ups in town. I knew what was going on in his mind: any trouble in London and he would dump us immediately, one way or another. He had to. If he got caught with a bagful of skag, on top of that armed robbery shit, he was going down for fifteen to twenty. Begbie was hard, but not so hard that he didn't shite it off twenty years in Saughton.BEGBIE
Did you bring the cards?SICK BOY
What?BEGBIE
The cards. The last thing I said to you was mind the cards.SICK BOY
Well, I've not brought them.BEGBIE
It's fucking boring after a while without the cards.SICK BOY
Well, I've not brought them.BEGBIE
It's fucking boring after a while without the cards.SICK BOY
I'm sorry.BEGBIE
Bit fucking late, like.SICK BOY
Well, why didn't you bring them?BEGBIE
Because I fucking told you to do that, you doss cunt.SICK BOY
Christ.
These are your friends?SICK BOY
These are the guys I told you about.ANDREAS
OK.SICK BOY
Is he here?ANDREAS
Yes, he's here. I hope you didn't get followed or nothing.BEGBIE
We didn't get followed.Andreas leads them along a corridor and into a room.
Straight away he clocked us from what we were: small-time wasters with an accidental big deal.MAN
So what do you want for it?BEGBIE
Twenty thousand.MAN
But it's not worth more than fifteen.BEGBIE
Ninteen.The man shakes his head and lights a cigarette. MAN
Nineteen I can't offer you, I'm sorry.RENTON (v.o)
This was a real drag to him. He didn't need to negotiate. I mean, what the fuck were we going to do if he didn't buy it? Sell it on the streets. Fuck that.The deal is done. The Man hands over the money and waits as it is counted, then leaves with the drugs. (v.o)
We settled on sixteen thousand pounds. He had a lot more in the suitcase, but it was better than nothing. And just for a moment it felt really great, like we were all in it together, like friends, like it meant something. A moment like that, it can touch you deep inside, but it doesn't last long, not like sixteen thousand pounds.
So what are you planning with your share, Spud?RENTON
Buy yourself that island in the sun?BEGBIE
For four fucking grand? One plam tree, a couple of rocks, and a sewage outflow.SPUD
I don't know, maybe I'll buy something for my ma, and then buy some good speed, no bicarb like, then get a girl, take her out like, and treat her -- properly.BEGBIE
Shag her senseless.SPUD
No, I don't mean like that -- I mean something nice, like, that's all --BEGBIE
You daft cunt. If you're going to waste it like that, you might as well leave it all to me. Now get the drinks in.SICK BOY
I got a round already.SPUD
I got the last one.RENTON
It's your round Franco.Begbie stands up. BEGBIE
OK. Same again?SICK BOY
I'm off for a pish. When I come back, that money's still here, OK?RENTON
The moment you turn your back, we're out that door.Sick Boy walks away towards the toilet. SICK BOY
I'll be right after you.BEGBIE
You'll never catch us, you flabby bastard. Right, see, when I come back --RENTON
We'll be half-way down the road with the money.BEGBIE
I'd fucking kill you.RENTON
I guess you would, Franco.Begbie walks away to the bar. Spud and Renton look at each other and the bag of money.
Are you game for it?Spud looks at the bag and around the pub towards the toilet door and Begbie. Begbie stands at the bar, awaiting the pints.
Well?SPUD
Are you serious?Renton looks around. RENTON
I don't know. What do you think?Spud says nothing. Suddenly they are interrupted. SICK BOY
Still here, I see.Sick Boy sits down. RENTON
Why not? I know I would. Where's Franco?Renton turns to see Begbie making his way through the crowd with the pints helf precariously. As he reaches the table a Man standing with a group of friends accidentally nudges Begbie, causing a pint to spill over him. BEGBIE
For fuck's sake.MAN
Sorry, mate, I'll get you another.BEGBIE
All down my fucking front, you fucking idiot.MAN
Look, I'm sorry, I didn't mean it.BEGBIE
Sorry's no going to dry me off, you cunt.RENTON
Cool down, Franco. The guy's sorry.BEGBIE
Not sorry enough for being a fat cunt.MAN
Fuck you. If you can't hold a pint, you shouldn't be in the pub, mate. Now fuck off.Begie drops the remaining three pints. As the Man looks down to the falling glasses, Begbie punches him in the face and knees him in the groin. A fight breaks out between the Man and Begbie. Sick Boy rushes forward to restrain Begbie. Renton sits still, not even looking at the fight or what follows. His eyes are fixed on the bag while his hands fiddle. Begbie stabs Spud in the hand. SPUD
Jesus Christ.SICK BOY
Good one, Franco.BEGBIE
Shut you mouth or you'll be next.SPUD
You've stabbed me, man.BEGBIE
You were in my way.Begbie, blade still in hand, addresses the entire pub.
And anyone in my way gets it, fucking gets it. Everybody hear that? Everybody happy?Nobody says anything. Renton is seated as before, avoiding Begbie's gaze. Begbie addresses him.
Hey, Rent-boy, bring us down a smoke.Renton does not move. SICK BOY
We'd better go, Franco.SPUD
I've got to get to the hospital, man.BEGBIE (to Spud)
You're not going to and fucking hospital.(to Sick Boy)
You're staying there.(to Renton)
And you bring me a fucking cigarette.Renton swivels and stands up.
And the bag.Renton lifts the bag and slowly approaches Begbie. Renton, nervous, hand shaking, pulls a packet of cigarettes from a pocket and holds it towards Begbie. Begbie does not move. Renton holds out the bag. Begbie takes it. Now Renton selects a cigarette and hands it over to Begbie. Begbie inhales deeply and then blows the smoke towards Renton
Now, I've justified this to myself in all sorts of ways: it wasn't a big deal, just a minor betrayal, or we'd outgrown each other, you know, that sort of thing, but let's face it, I ripped them off. My so-called mayes. But Begbie, I couldn't give a shit about him, and Sick Boy, well, he'd have done the same to me if only he'd thought of it first, and Spud, well, OK, I felt sorry for Spud -- he never hurt anybody.
So why did I do it? I could offer a million answers, all false. The truth is that I'm a bad person, but that's going to change, I'm going to change. This is the last of this sort of thing. I'm cleaning up and I'm moving on, going straight and choosing life. I'm looking forward to it already. I'm going to be just like you: the job, the family, the fucking big television, the washing machine, the car, the compact disc and electrical tin opener, good health, low cholesterol, dental insurance, mortgage, starter home, leisurewear, luggage, three-piece suite, DIY, game shows, junk food, children, walks in the park, nine to five, good at golf, washing the car, choice of sweaters, family Christmas, indexed pension, tax exemption, clearing the gutters, getting by, looking ahead, to the day you die.